Digging Deep

Good morning all!

I feel the need to start this morning with a pep talk focused specifically on me, for me.  Not that I’m am completely miserable, but with all of the craziness in my life, I need to remember to ‘dig deep’ and find MY happiness.  I have been putting a lot of other things ahead of my own happiness, and the cracks in the facade are starting to show.

I have had many sleepless nights in recent weeks, where I spend hours pondering what direction I want my life to go in, for myself, and my family.  I feel somewhat stuck in a rut.  Even with breaking into exercise, starting a blog, signing on to lots of school volunteer responsibilities, shuttling my kids everywhere, and reading(A LOT), it’s not enough, and I need to figure out where to go from here.  Do I want to go back to school?  Do I want to find a job?  Do I have the drive and focus to run my own business?  I don’t know, but I suppose it’s time to find out.  I am not gonna lie, these ideas are terrifying, and just the thought of trying something so new causes my anxiety level to shoot through the roof.  But, I’m going to spend some much needed time focusing on me, and trying to find my true passion- as cheesy as that may sound- and go for it.

With that said, I probably won’t be blogging as much.  You’ve probably already noticed a slowdown as it is.  There just doesn’t seem to be enough hours in the day to get everything done.  However, I’m not abandoning my favorite, bizarre, online diary… I will try my best to keep it up and running, I just won’t be posting quite so often.  And I certainly am not stopping physical running.  I’ve found a true admiration and love for the sport, and I plan on continuing down that healthy path, literally 😉  In fact, I will be signing up for my first 5k this week!  I’ll keep you posted.

Alright, enough of the serious- let’s get to the fun!

Workout:  After devouring half of a banana and a cup of coffee, I threw on my running gear and drove over to a nearby park.  I wanted to do a longer run this morning (at least 2 miles) and the park is the perfect place for that.

I ended up with a 1.93 mile run in 24:07 minutes with an avg pace of 12:30.  Not great, not quite 2 miles, but after taking so long to jump back into a hearty run, it felt really good.

Breakfast:  When I made it back to the house, I finished the other half of my banana, and heated up a batch of pumpkin spice oatmeal.  It was actually CHILLY here in Houston (around 60 degrees this morning), so a warm batch of oats hit the spot.

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Yeah, that picture barely made it.  I was starving.

I have a lot on the agenda today, including cake making, and shopping this evening with a certain bride-to-be.  It’s going to be another busy one!

Have a great Thursday!

Amy

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2 thoughts on “Digging Deep

  1. So many decisions! I’m glad that you are taking time for yourself to figure out what it is that you want. I’m sure that whatever you decide, it will work out for you. In truth, all of the options you’ve presented sound like good decisions. I’ll be here reading when you do decide to post, and I can’t wait to hear about the race you signed up for!

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